I'M STILL LOVING YOU..

I'm not a perfect gal..

so am i have to give up??

the 1st day i noe u..

u r so so fiece look+a noob face..

u wanna hired me..bt turn up i update wif u everything.

that time..honestly..i really bit pek cek bot u!!

but slowly..we noe each other..

we working..chatting..

for me~that time u r a strict supervisor~ 

bt treat us very nice actually..

n dunno why..n who..decided to goin out 2gether the last day..

then we hang out after working..a gud memory..

since i still rmb it..i wanna record everything..:)

we go supper..until early in the morning..4-5am..

then we go bec to our normal life..

that time we juz frens..maybe the r/ship btw supervisor n a promoter oni..

after u bec..we still contact..sms oso..

the time i slowly get understanding toward u..

the next event..coz of u..i ask my fren along n help u..

then we getting closer that time..go supper again..

slowly..i feel jelly coz u n P more close..

u alwayz ask her sit in front..find excuses said that 

she is fat..bt frankly..the fact nt :D

the time i thought u like P..

then din think so much..as i hav lot activities..homework have to handle..

so i have no time to choi this matter..

so i juz let it be..bt we still hav contact each other..

most of the time is u find me..then i juz reply XD

until the day u come alone..

we meet up.we acc u..

coz u scare..as a fren..i'm ok wif it:)

then slowly u will tell me about ur r/ship..

tat time heard that u r suffering..

wif ur gf..but i hav no right to help u make any decision..

slowly..ur gf argue coz of me..

she said u stalk me..like me..

when u tell me..i really hav bit happy

but i oso bit sad..coz i seem like hurt her..

but i din do anything..n i dunno ur feeling toward me tat time..

time flies..i hav some feeling toward u..

coz i feel that u r honest..u r nice actually..

so everything bot u..i feel to noe more..

i wanna noe everything bot u..

then the rest of story is put inside bottom of my heart..

i wanna said:

even u lie me..but i can rgd it as a 善意谎言..

as u noe i dun like her..so u try to dunwan tell me..

but fact..纸是包不住火..i still discover it by myself..

i dy try very hard to accept her..bt u make me dissapointed de nt coz u lie me.

is coz u think i cant accept if u goin out wif her.u dun trust me.

n alwayz judge me by urself..i can learn everything..

even my tempered is very jialat be4..bt nw still change le..

ntg cnt change..ntg cnt learn..hence..

accept her n my business actually.

juz accept the fact u still be wif fren wif her

i noe u r special..still can be fren wif her..

but my worries is wat she think

even u think ntg..bt for her..

refresh n refresh again wat she post!!

juz like put the sand on my heart..

my heart broken!!

if she cant let go easily..

then why u dun be cool bit..

juz ignore her while..let her forget u..

i noe she chi xin..so am i..

so i noe..once the ppl ignore me..

then slowly..time will make me forget about everything..

even i noe..time can make me forget u..

but i'm nt willing to do that!!

if u said..u cant bear wif my attitude n wat so ever..

then i cn accept..bt is coz her things..

we start war..we start argue.

i noe u cry today..i'm sure!!

my heart really really really pain that time..

i feel wanna hug u the moment..

nt i dun understand u..is i dunno wat u think..

u alwayz hide it..nvr let me noe..

or maybe i'm stupid..i dunno how to read through u:((

btw u said u make decision dy..

i really wanna hear ur decision from ur bottom of ur heart..

izit thats ur last decision..if really..i respect:(

thats the only choice to make u more happy~~

if i tied u..if u nt happy to be wif me..

oso meaningless..i'm open minded:)

even i noe i cant accept..i will sad..

i maybe will crying everyday..

but i believe..time..

can prove everything..:)

i'm big big gal in a big big world..

muz accept everything..sadness..happiness..

bt i hopes i'm the big big gal in ur world..